Day 2: Finding that Inner Motivation & Avoiding Peanutbutter

So, day two on my quest to compete in a bikini competition and live a healthier, cleaner life is down. It wasn’t a perfect day, but I did some important reflection on motivation. What is it that makes me work hard at one thing and want to give up on another? I really had that I-don’t-feel-like-working-out attitude today, but I managed to push through it. Probably because I was thinking about how I ate the crust off of my son’s peanut butter and jelly sandwich today (plus another half of a sandwich because it was delicious). I also had another handful of dark chocolate. Peanutbutter=Kryptonite and dark chocolate=happiness.  *Sigh*  So I was majorly down on myself about my choices, and I could feel myself just leaning on giving up because it is hard.

Then, I tried to think about why I automatically wanted to throw in the towel in this situation. I don’t do it when work stresses me out or when I had to take Stat III as part of my research cognate  I just soldier on through. So why just pick up my baggage and keep walking in those situations and want to mail it in with working out/eating right as soon as I hit a hiccup?  I realized that anyone who is fitter than me is just trying harder. They’ve been trying harder for longer than two days. Sure, some people have naturally faster metabolisms or better natural mechanics, but there’s a lot to say for being consistent with exercise that pushes me past my comfort zone and making good decisions about what I eat.

I think it all settles on I’m willing to push harder for things that I’m naturally good at.  I’m an English and reading teacher. I have a Ph.D. in English Education, and I have a passion for teaching. I believe effective communication skills and a command of language will open doors for people. But at the same time, the English language is so easy for me. Things just make sense. I enjoy writing and reading, and thinking about how what goes on inside my mind can help kids who may struggle. Then, I thought about my intensive readers. I’m asking them to push through something that they may not like and that might not be easy for them. It’s not fair for me to push them to do something hard when I’m not willing to push through something hard for myself.

When I think about the people I see on Facebook in the living-high-school-yearbook-that-is-now-the-Internet, I can get the gist of what they are passionate about and what they are good at. It’s easy to feel a twinge of jealousy over someone else’s achievements. But, I can’t be jealous of them ever. Not because I know that people only post their highs online, but because I know that that particular person tried harder at whatever it was, and that more often than not, they were able to push so hard because we have a tendency to excel at the things that come a little easier to us. So, now I’m pushing myself to try a little harder at something that is not so easy for me. Being fit is not supposed to be easy. I’m going to keep moving forward.

Today’s Workouts

Ran 1.5 miles in about 16 minutes pushing the little man in the stroller

Did Day 2 of the BodyRock HiitMax Real Time Challenge–seriously check out the link on my Post from yesterday


Today’s Food

Breakfast: 1 egg, 1 egg white scrambled with a little piece of cheddar cheese  + 1 1/2 piece of bacon (the hubby stayed home and wanted breakfast)

Snack 1: Carrots w/Hummus

Lunch: I totally didn’t eat the salad AGAIN…I’m thinking I need to pre-make these

Snack 2: Chocolate Protein Shake

Dinner: Rosemary pork chops, a few roasted red potatoes, brussel sprouts…will post recipes later…these are great!!



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